OK, so having been asked this by my students countless times, here I am pondering it myself. The marvelous feeling of the day before did not last. Buttons were pushed by an unwelcome email, and “poof.” Having been blessed and cursed with a sensitive, kinesthetically-oriented system, I am not satisfied with a low back over-working, eyes fixed or darting around, and breathing all screwy (which, btw, all go together.)
The lesson I continued incorporated movements of the feet and turning the head. Inside, I protest “NO, it’s the eyes! I need to move my eyes again to get that feeling back. The fleeting, relaxed-yet-stimulated nirvana…”
I ignore Moshe and move my eyes instead of feet, knowing that my child-care time is precious.
But he says something interesting. As a person of age and experience, he knows now not to do things. He teaches in a certain order for a reason. All in good time. I am again striving for something that I came upon without even knowing what it is, doing small movements over and over again while listening to all sorts of stories to distract/instruct.
Each story he tells is worthy of a day’s consideration. I want to hold on to the stories, as well. But he says, when you have yourself organized you can see the whole and the parts all perfectly, without reaching for them. You could detect, at a glance, in an entire page of text, a difference in one letter’s font. It's not in what you do, but HOW YOU DO IT.
I am simultaneously rebuilding my training in non-duality through meditation. Starting quite humbly with 5 minutes.
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